Author Belle Calhoune & Her Anger at God

Sandra Calhoune

My guest today is new Love Inspired Author Belle Calhoune. She shares a dark period in her life. She is offering a book giveaway so be sure to leave a comment. Here’s Belle:

“One of the most difficult life passages

involves letting go of a loved one.  It doesn’t matter whether we’re adults with our own children or teenagers struggling through adolescence.  The loss of a parent feels as if we’ve been run over by a mack truck.  It is a painful and devastating experience.

When my mother received a crushing diagnosis

of terminal cancer she was a vital, energetic woman with no health problems.  Married to my father for almost forty years, mother of five children and a dedicated physician, my mother was a force of nature. There wasn’t anything she couldn’t do.  Yet in one fell swoop she had to face the fact that her life was slipping away from her.  While I was busy sobbing my eyes out, my mother calmly listed all the things she was grateful for in her life.  My father.  Her children.  A wonderful home.  Her dream career.  And friends.  It was in this moment that I realized exactly who my mother was—a strong, spiritual woman grateful for her blessings, even in her darkest hour.

During the next nine months my family rallied around her.  We cared for her, loved her, watched movies with her, rang in the New Year and made each other laugh.  One of the most beautiful things I witnessed was the love and devotion of my father, who stood by her side and served as her caregiver each and every day.   And one of the most poignant things my mother was able to experience before she passed was my father dedicating himself to God in a church ceremony.

Yet I struggled with the loss of my mother and my anger at God.

How could a woman as giving as my mother be taken from us so swiftly, so randomly? And why had He allowed it?  I didn’t attend church, stopped writing and allowed anger into my heart.  In the end, it was my five year old daughter who showed me that God was all around me, supporting me, loving me and nurturing me.  How could I be angry when He’d given me so many blessing in my life?  After all, He’d given me my wonderful mother and everything else I cherished.


To purchase, click here. Reunited with the Sheriff (Love Inspired)


Belle’s New Book

As authors, we inject a little bit of our own experiences into our works.  My heroine, Cassidy Blake, returns to her hometown of West Falls, Texas in order to take care of her cancer stricken mother.  Because she loves her mother dearly, Cassidy is willing to endure coming face to face with her past in order to support the woman she loves during a health crisis.”–Belle

Stop by and visit Belle at:
Author Belle Calhoune on Facebook

One of the main things I appreciate is that my guests are not afraid to share their real stories, the ones that cost them something to share. And my readers are similarly fearless.

QUESTION: Have you lost anyone dear to you? How did you handle it? OR have you ever been angry with God? Why and how did this change? Or has it changed?

Leave a comment and be entered into the drawing for Belle’s book–Lyn

PS-The winner of my copy of BILLY GRAHAM & ME is Barbara Thompson!



About Lyn Cote

Lyn Cote welcomes other authors to her "Strong Women, Brave Stories" blog to share stories of women who triumph over the challenges common to all women.
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9 Responses to Author Belle Calhoune & Her Anger at God

  1. I would love to win the wonderful giveaway,Enter me! Thanks for the awesome giveaway and God Bless!
    Sarah Richmond

  2. brandy morrison says:

    I appreciate your thoughts too! Felt very similar when my Grandma, who was more like my mom, passed away from bone cancer a yr ago in August. I look forward to reading your book. It looks good. Would love a chance to win a copy.

    • Belle Calhoune says:

      Hi Brandy,
      Thanks for stopping by. It sounds like you know the pain of loss as well. Good luck with winning the book.


  3. Katy Lee says:

    Hi Belle,
    You’re a beautiful woman of God, and it’s okay when we get angry at God, He can handle it. But also know, he never intended for us to be separated from our loved ones. That was not His plan. Death was not a part of His plan and it hurts Him more than anyone. But this is where you can thank Jesus for making everything right again. We have so much to thank Him for! But reunion with our past loved ones is a pretty big gift! Think of the party!

    Love you!!

    (P.S. Already have this amazing and wonderful book, so bless someone else with it)

    • Thanks Katy! Reunion with our loved ones is indeed a wonderful gift. Sometimes in our grief we lose sight of those blessings. Thankfully, God’s divine grace shines through the bleak moments.


  4. Belle, I so appreciate that you shared such a personal story and how you used it as inspiration for your debut novel. I did get angry with God once (just once? uh, not really but…) when my youngest child was diagnosed with a very serious (though not life-threatening) illness. The answer to how I got through this anger is that I don’t know how to be without God. I just don’t know any other way to be, because he has pursued me for so long. My anger turned to sadness and despair, and one night I clearly recall feeling that “peace that surpasses all understanding”. I felt God’s love in a very real and tangible way. The Bible says that none are as close to God as the broken hearted. Amazingly, I grew even closer to God during this difficult time. I think it’s okay to be angry with God, he wants us to be “real” with him – a relationship requires us to tell Him how we really feel! Be angry with God if you must, but don’t stop talking to Him!

    • Belle Calhoune says:

      Thanks for stopping by Maria. I think you hit on something so important…ultimately it was impossible not to talk to God. Anger fades. Faith endures.


  5. Valri Western says:

    I appreciated your thoughts, Belle! I don’t think anyone can understand when a parent or loved one goes through that experience when he/she is such a good person! It’s so hard to accept! We have a good friend that was killed in a car accident and left behind a wonderful wife and 3 darling daughters. So hard to understand why that happened. Thankfully our church and their family has rallied around them to pull them through but it doesn’t take away all the pain, of course. I can’t think of a time I was ever angry with God but plenty of times when I was more “questioning” of “why did that happen to such a good person?” I look forward to reading your first book! I sounds like a winner! Congrats on your first Love Inspired!

    • Belle Calhoune says:

      Thanks for stopping by, Valri! In many ways I think my anger was part of the grieving process. It didn’t feel good to be angry at God and I’m thankful to have passed through the storm.